Hello,
We don’t speak much, or perhaps never at all. Life takes us on different paths and journeys, but I want you to know that you are in my heart and mind. I have reached a point in my life of reflection and introspection. There is so much I want to share with you, but I don’t know how you will take what I have to say. Everything I have to say comes from a place of love, and all I ask is that you read everything with an open mind.
Let me start with an apology. I am sorry if anything I have done in my lifetime has created discord and division between you and me. I apologize for not showing you love in my words or actions. I am sorry for not investing in our relationship how I should have or if I allowed our differences to drive a wedge between us. I am sorry for not being a person of compassion and grace. I am sorry for speaking words of ignorance rather than words of edification. I am sorry for being a hypocrite and not living a righteous life. My heart aches, knowing that my actions and words have not aligned with who I claim to be. I have failed you by giving into worldly pressures and fear.
For my entire life, I have claimed to be a Christian. I have claimed to believe in Jesus Christ, the Son of God. I know I have not lived a life worthy of being called a Christ follower. I have chosen to be led by selfishness, pride, and arrogance many times throughout my life. I have allowed anger to be a staple in my life, possibly creating division between you and me. I have failed at being a good representative of Jesus Christ. If my actions or words have caused you to disbelieve or deny the existence of God and His Son, Jesus Christ, I ask that you see past my faults. I am a sinner, a broken man, and I know that I fail at being a good representative of Jesus Christ. I am a work in progress saved by grace.
I am making you this promise from here on out: I will strive to be the man I am called to be – a man called to love and edify, to give grace, compassion, and forgiveness, and most importantly, a man called to serve. I am a work in progress, and I cannot guarantee perfection. However, I promise you that I will strive to do what is right, and when I fail, I will repent, seek forgiveness, and turn back to what is right.
I am not a Christian as defined by today’s society. I am a sinner, saved by grace through faith by the ultimate sacrifice made by Jesus Christ when He was crucified on the cross. This does not make me better than you or anyone else. All this means is that I recognize that I am a sinner in need of saving. It means that I acknowledge that I am broken, messed up, and have failed to do what is right on many occasions. It means that I am saying that God’s way is better than mine and that I need saving from myself.
As a new follower of Jesus Christ – I say “new” because I have not been living my life as a faithful follower of Christ – I do not want to force my beliefs on you. Your choice to believe in God and follow Jesus Christ is your own. However, I would be remiss if I didn’t share my heart with you.
I want you to know that I love you. I don’t care about your political affiliation, your history, or anything else of insignificance. I love you for you. You were created in God’s image, making you beautiful and significant in my eyes. You might say that you don’t believe in God. To which I say, He still believes in you. You were made for more than just making it through each day. You were made to experience God’s joy and love.
This is where I share the hard truth. Life is but a breath. We are here one day and gone the next. Knowing what I know and believing what I believe, it would be selfish to keep it to myself. Life, as we know it, is a drop of water within the vast ocean of eternity. Death is only the death of our physical self. But you and I are more than just physical. You and I have a spirit and a soul. The choices we make here will determine the outcome of our spiritual self.
We tend to think that everything happening around us is what matters – politics, religion, ideologies, agendas, etc. In all sincerity, those things matter very little. What truly matters is how you and I live our lives and whether we choose to accept Jesus Christ, make Him the Lord of our lives, and follow after him. You see, as someone who has lived their life as a said “Christian,” there is one thing that I never really did – make Jesus Christ the Lord of my life. It hasn’t been until recently that I have acknowledged the downfall of my choices and the consequences of choosing selfishness over God’s wisdom and Truth.
For a long time, I thought being a Christian was me professing and believing in Jesus Christ. I have learned that this is a tiny part of the process. What matters most is repentance and a changed heart that follows the commands of Christ Jesus. I must warn you that your pride, selfishness, and self-deception, just like mine, will make you believe that you have nothing to repent of and that you are good just the way you are. This is the greatest lie we have been led to think about ourselves. The truth is, we are not good just the way we are. We are broken and messed up. What we do is not enough. It doesn’t matter how much we work, how much we give, or even how much we sacrifice. We must repent of our sin – our inability to choose God over self – and turn to Christ as our Savior and Lord.
Jesus said, “I am the way, truth, and life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” He also said, “Very truly I tell you, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless they are born of water and the Spirit. Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit. You should not be surprised at my saying, ‘You must be born again.’ The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit.” Finally, Jesus says, “If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love.”
It is only through Jesus that we can have life. Life is not what you and I think it to be. It’s more than getting up and going through the grind. It’s more than political and ideological constructs. Life is not about us. It was never meant to be about us. Life is about submitting all we have before Jesus Christ, taking up our cross, and following Him. At any point that we don’t do this, life becomes meaningless.
Jesus told us that never everyone who calls on His name will be saved. It is only those who follow His commands that will be saved. This begs the question, what is the will of the Father? In short, “To Love the Lord God with all our heart, soul, and strength.” Love is an action. It is not just words. It’s giving up our wants and desires for His. It is living a life completely sold out to Him. This is why politics, religion, ideologies, and agendas mean very little.
Why am I telling you all of this? Because you are important to me, and for far too long, I have neglected to invite you into a relationship with Jesus. I have failed you and failed to follow my Lord’s commands. I have been selfish in keeping my knowledge of Jesus Christ and what He has done for me to myself. I need to tell you that Jesus loves you. He wants to be in a deep, meaningful relationship with you. He wants to change your paradigm and help you see what truly matters. He wants to show you your value and worth and take you from where you are to someplace even greater. When we say goodbye to this world, I want you and I to live together in peace in the presence of God. Your soul matters to me, and I don’t want to see you choose to deny eternal joy and happiness due to pride, selfishness, and deception.
If you believe in Jesus Christ, I encourage you in your faith and your walk with Him. I encourage you to abstain from the world’s ways and hold fast to His commandments. Trust the Lord with all your heart, and don’t think you understand it all. If it has been a while, I encourage you to pick up the Bible and start reading. The truths that are found in its pages are guideposts and directional signs for life. Do not be deceived by the lies of the world, and do not conform to the ways of this world. Seek Jesus Christ and be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Take your wants and desires and place them in front of the throne of Christ. Be willing to give up what you think is right for the way of Jesus. Repent of the sin in your life, change your heart, seek God, and renew your relationship with Him. The Apostle James warns us, “Don’t you know that friendship with the world means enmity against God? Therefore, anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God.”
We are called to be in the world but not of the world. We are also called to be the light in the world. Those who know Jesus know the light and have the light within them. This world has nothing to offer except total depravity and exile from God. The more we find ourselves drawn into the world’s darkness, the farther we get from the True light who gives life to all. If you find yourself in a dark place, stop and find out where you are compared to Jesus Christ and His commandments.
Proverbs says, “Whoever keeps the commandments keeps their life, but whoever shows contempt for their ways will die.” Jesus also said, “There is only One who is good. If you want to enter life, keep the commandments.” If God the Father and His son, Jesus Christ, are not first in our lives, then we have already failed at keeping His commandments. We must repent of our selfishness, arrogance, and self-deception, return to God, and follow Him.
I want nothing but the best for you, and I know that the world does not have your best interests at heart. There is only One who truly loves you and has your best interests at heart – Jesus Christ. As the Apostle Paul wrote, “But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” It was God who gave us a way out. It was God who sacrificed His son to save us. If you do not know Christ, I am asking you, with all of my heart, to seek Him out and get to know Him. God said, “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” Jesus Christ will show up for those who genuinely want to know Him.
If you know Christ but have strayed away from Him, much like I have, I encourage you to recenter yourself and seek Jesus. The scariest words ever spoken by Jesus were, “Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name and in your name drive out demons and in your name perform many miracles?’ Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'” Come back to Jesus Christ. Repent and make Him first in all you do. Follow His commandments: love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, and strength. This means that we must make Him first in all that we do.
I love you, and I pray that you take what I have written with an open mind and truly reflect on what I have stated. You are precious and meant for so much more than what this world has to offer. If you ever want a deeper, more meaningful conversation, please do not hesitate to contact me. If we don’t see each other in this lifetime, I pray that we will see each other in the life to come. Never forget, just because you may not believe in God doesn’t mean He doesn’t believe in you and wants the best for you. He knows you, He sees you, and He loves you. He’ll never force His way into your life. He will always be one step behind, waiting for you to let Him.